Things Never Go To Plan. HALLELUJAH!

NOTHING GOES TO PLAN. and thank god!

Today is February 27th, 2023, and the day I share this little corner of my world with the rest of the world. I’m screaming!!! Excitement, uncertainty, and PURE joy - I don’t know what kept me from sharing this space for so long, but here it is. If I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard “Nothing goes to plan” I’d be a self-made millionaire. I’d say that me learning to trust myself, my journey and the universe has been one of my sole (or soul!) focuses for the past 6 years. So many things I had planned ended up completely different from how I had planned. Things I wanted so desperately never came to fruition, but at the same time, things and plans I couldn’t have dreamt up were sent my way and I’m forever grateful that things turn out the way we don’t intend them to. HOWEVER, if you know me, planning is embedded in my DNA and honestly should be my middle name at this point. I LOVE TO PLAN; I’ll plan parties, I’ll plan vacations, I’ll plan my outfits for weeks, I’ll use any excuse to plan something and create a freaking excel spreadsheet for it! It literally makes me giddy. Finding a fine line of being grateful that nothing goes to plan and also planning as much as I possibly can is one I’m walking daily. And learning to be better at :)

I’ve wavered on how I’d plan to share this little corner of my world with everyone, and truthfully, this was not how I planned it. But here we are, it’s a Monday night while I sit on my bed and watch the new episode of Love Island. I’ve had this draft going for quite a while and truthfully it’s more like a diary entry, but I think it’s most fitting that we launch with this post. Here we go <3

Today is February 3rd and my 24th birthday.

I’ve had this site for over 3 years now and have had moments where I write a ton of drafts, or nothing at all. (Refer to my about page - it’s a lot of “this or that, with no in-between”) While I may not have been as consistent as I wanted to be, this little space of the internet has always stayed in the back of my mind.

New Years came around and I had been in a binge fest of all things Jay Shetty-related. I love his podcasts and find him to be so inspiring. I listened to this one (12/10 recommend you do the same) and knew I wanted to make a vision board this year. One thing I included on my board was to continue to pursue and find new passions. Fast forward 2 weeks and an opportunity landed in my lap to be a part of a coaching program with the one and only Jay Shetty !!! I got accepted and I keep pinching myself about it! I’ve loved it so much and feel so blessed to be a part of it!

In it, we discuss finding passions and pursuing them as a career. The stars align. For the last 6-7 months I’ve felt myself go back and forth on what I want to do with my life. Uncertainty is the word that keeps coming up. Before we go further, let me introduce you to a few things about myself:

• I love to be in control - I get big anxiety if I think about things that could happen that are out of my control. (working on this!)

• I am a perfectionist. (A big part of what’s kept me from sharing this!)

• I KNOW that everything will work out, but I still find myself worrying (also working on this) that I won’t accomplish everything I want to in this world. AHH!

I had a long talk with Jack today about some recent life events and how I don’t want to regret anything in life. While I know that mistakes will happen, I do feel that there’s a difference in a mistake and a regret. While I know that everything will work out for me exactly when and how it’s supposed to, I don’t want to miss out on any opportunities.

Life has a really weird way of somehow always working out. And it’s something I’m not sure I understand but I know it to be true.

Think about all the people you know, think about their careers. Did they always know they wanted to be doing what they do? For some, maybe. For the rest of us, we are following our path and finding ourselves in the process.

There are really hard things that each of us will go through, no matter what. Things that are completely out of our control, and will always be. It is a daunting thought. Honestly paralyzing to think about all the things that could happen, and yet, we carry on with our day-to-day lives.

As mentioned, I’ve had this little space to myself for a few years and I’ll write things here and there, when I’m feeling like it. I stumbled upon an old draft and somehow almost exactly a year later I have so many of the same feelings…

“I’ve had so many flooding thoughts come to my mind this weekend and continued through today (Tuesday, January 25th, 2021) that I couldn’t help but write it all out. In my iPad, my notebook, and here. I’ve been spending more and more time on here getting it to become something… Something that I am not quite sure of, but I know it will be something. Whether that is just a website diary and journal I come to and use, or for something much bigger, I’m not sure and I am excited either way.

I was watching Sex and The City with Jack last night after dinner, when Carrie and the girls were talking about their careers as women and how they have all ended up doing things that none of them had ever imagined, yet they couldn’t be more grateful it turned out that way.

That resonated with me for many reasons.

I immediately went back through the posts I have on here from 2019. Before Covid and all the chaos that was involved. I was so sure that I knew exactly all the amazing things that I would be able to do in the new year. Jack would move to LA, I’d get a promotion and keep my career heading in the direction I imagined, more vacations, the list goes on. I was so proud of myself.

Flash forward to now. So many countless life-changing moments, some good, some really hard, and some really amazing. And guess what? It all worked out.”

Let’s flash forward to TODAY, February 27th, 2023. Can we talk about how I ended up GETTING ENGAGED THE DAY after I wrote this?!! Again, thank god nothing goes to plan! I couldn’t have imagined a more perfect day, time, place, or moment to get engaged. AND IN CASE YOU FORGOT, EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORKS OUT!!!

For the past 3-4 weeks at my job, I’ve been talking about the viral “Lucky Girl Syndrome” with my coworkers, and to me, is just another sign from the universe that I’m on the right path. We give each other quotes each monday, and this one was mine today <3

I guess in our own ways, we are all planners against the universe, and it’s the craziest and most exciting thing to know it’s all working out for us and the better! A few things I’m working on remembering everyday, especially when I get anxiety or hard on myself.

YOU ARE SO LUCKY THAT EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORKS OUT FOR YOU.

THE UNIVERSE IS ON YOUR SIDE

YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH

NOTHING GOES TO PLAN, AND THANK GOD!

Thanks for being here, you’re welcome anytime <3

Sienna xx